29th of April, yesterday was the first time I left my house alone and took the flight alone to Hong Kong. I don’t mind to be alone frankly haha. Well, I actually cried in the train because of my dad. This trip is actually a last minute confirmation trip so I didn’t have the time and the gut to tell my dad about this but he found out through my mom enentually so he scolded me. Actually I believed he scolded me due to the $$ issue haha oh ya, I cried because I felt bad for not informing him, I believe despite money issue, it is also about the safety problem. My sister and my bro-in-law need to work during weekdays so eventually I need to stay at home all by myself and that’s the reason why I am so free to write this article haha. Staying apart from my second sis-Amanda is quite….hmmm is like missing something but I am NOT lonely AMANDA haha anyway,I will always miss you muaxxx
Actually I would really like to make an apology over here to Rick Lee. I am so sorry that I couldn’t make it to your show. Don’t know why, I felt so useless, I should have just tell Jane that I really really wanted to go to your show but I am GUTLESS, fuck it. I believe that show is going to be fun since I will have zero opportunity to do modeling again because I might be taking my degree in Hong Kong.
I have made this trip and sacrificed the show(this opportunity is quite precious to me cause Rick is the only person who wants me to become his model haha) because I came to HK to do some research on the uni over here. Haih.i have created another problem now, I don’t how am I supposed to tell my dad about this, he is going to be really upset because if I really move away from him, then nobody will play gu-zheng for him anymore… and of coz I don wish to quit playing it….
I love everything around me, I love everyone around me but I am confused, I don’t know whether should I stay in Malaysia or move to HK…part of me feel like going, part of me asking me to stay in M'sia....sigh anyhow, I believe everything is destined, I don’t have the power to rewrite my destiny since it has been written, stated and unchangeable. I am going to stick with the happy life from now on and continue playing with my Mario game TADAAAAAAA.
5 comments:
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Was shocked after reading this post.
If u ask me whether u should go or stay, of cause i will answer u that, i want you to stay with us.
But girl, its ur future. Nothing should have stop u.
Sometimes we need to put down something to allow ourself to go on.
No matter how's ur decision, let us know, k?
If you really decide to go, it's ok. There are still 1 yr for us =)
Btw..
So you are there while i sms u? OMG, how much i spend for sending a sms to HK?!
no worries la idiot haha i was still there while u message me haha yup theres one more year to go:) everything is destined, let c how it goes:) miss u
u knw whut.. i am actually cryin now after i read dis.. i cant control my feeling man.. damn it! how could u do this to me.. i reli damn miss u.. even when u were in m'sia, i could hardly contact and meet up wit u.. AND NOW! u plan to go HK.. u alwiz giv me lots of shock and suprises.. i feel like a lesbian everytime sending u msg.. do u knw tat?? u didnt even contact me. alwiz soo bz.. even though every 1 is bz wit their own life but i do hope to keep in touch wit u and hope u are doin well, wehere ever u do and whutever u do.. do take care.. and i wana tell u this.. no matter where u go.. i would like to knw how u doin ok? do inform me.. and if u dont come bak msia, in future i would oso like to meet up wit u whenver we have de chance even if its @ overseas.. OK?? do take care and miss u gurl!
sharon, of coz i will keep in touch with u,even not by the phone, i still can chat with u online ride??? u know wat?? u seriously sound like my honey hahaaha i'm not reli sure whheter should i leave m'sia because i dun wanna leave my parents too..but if i reli feel that this is the place which can lead me to a brighter future then i have to leave m'sia...i want a successful life, same goes to u k:)
yea.. i knw life still have to go on and we have to let goes of things when the time comes.. and i oso hope the best for u my dear zi mui.. but i reli hope tat u could contact me whenever u are free i would try to meet up wit u cause i reli miss ur presence. it has been quite sometime since i last talked to u.. but i knw the days would come.. no matter how bz i am i would hope to spend some time wit u my dear.. miss u!
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